Monday, July 26, 2010

a friendly game

we have entered a new phase here.
we are seeing the more defiant side of our six year old..
and i am pleased.
but pleased.

she says no to me more times a day than most 2 year olds... but i figure she has 6 years of no's to make up for...

and she is beginning to understand that she has a tough mom...
and that i don't give in too easily.

becoming more a part of our family every day...
so blessed, we are.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

the many faces of bosena




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a funny sequence

for someone who pretends to hate the camera,
she sure is a ham when i don't want her to be!




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micah's party...




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Saturday, July 17, 2010

Happy 7th Birthday Micah!

today our sweet micah turns 7!
so hard to believe...
love him.
much. :)

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

i didn't used to like cheap ice cream.

not really sure i even know how to blog anymore.
it has been a long time since i put my heart out in words.

there has been much.
much that has changed me, much that doesn't need to be shared,
much that does.

i realized last night,
that i get all jumbled up in my head when i don't write things down...
not shopping or to do lists,
but my heart.

so i am going to try to get back there,
the place where words flow freely, and don't get stuck.

the fact is,
i am different than i was.

these last few months have changed me... not the obvious, like, i have a new daughter.
but the spirit kind, like, am i really who i thought i was? or was this experience what i had imagined it to be?

the answer to both of those is yes and no.

our time in Ethiopia was incredible,
i love it there... my family is there.

i was living second to second for a time though, and that is draining.

was i sad to leave? yes.

but upon returning home, i feel a sort of need to hunker down and protect.
and i am feeling guilt from this.
like i should be doing more. for water, for anyone in need, for the widowed, the orphaned.
it is never enough.
and i am feeling the weight of that these days.

last night around midnight,
i went to the freezer, to get a bowl of chocolate brownie ice cream, and found myself excited about the blue bunny.
it wasn't ben and jerry's, it wasn't even bryers.
it was the cheapest of cheap,
and i was thrilled.

i spent the next two hours pondering what that really means, in my head, and in my heart.

because i am different now than i was.

i didn't used to like cheap ice cream.

Friday, July 9, 2010

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

my kids are amazing.

this girl had been so great with bosena...
teaching her so many things,
sharing everything,
waiting at the table until she is finished eating,
just being a great big sister.

and i am not surprised.
she is pretty incredible.

and these kids...
treating her like the Queen of Sheba

and brody too,
even though he is not pictured,
is currently singing a song...
"i just love you Bosena, i just love you Bosena!"

and even this old boy
is tolerating being carried around by his new owner...
although i imagine that is short lived.
we might have to invest in a kitten.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

so far so good

we are doing well so far...
been to the aquatic center 3 times,
out to eat at the chart house,
friends over to bbq,
to the park,
and a 3D movie...
in less than a week.

and she still looks like this:

we are blessed indeed.

i AM planning on documenting some of our trip...
but i still need a little distance from it.
too fresh.
still makes my stomach turn.
some day.
i promise.

in other news...
good, good friends are moving away today.
and i don't know how to feel,
so i am apparently choosing to block it out.
it sucks.
and i don't know what i will do without them.
but they are only 13 hours away,
so i may be there a lot.

Friday, July 2, 2010

this makes me laugh...

the last three nights,
i have had the same dream.
i am in the woods, with different people everytime, but i see a huge grizzly bear in the near distance, she sees us, and begins chasing us.
i turn and walk slowly away.. breathing heavy, but not running.
she follows, close.
then i wake up.

i looked it up...
here is what i found:

"To dream that you are being pursued or attacked by a bear, denotes aggression, overwhelming obstacles and competition. You may find yourself in a threatening situation."

no kidding.


home sweet home :)
wireless internet is out... will post more when we get a new router... just know we are beyond happy to be home.
blessings friends