i have said before that i love people hard.
and i do.
i dive in.
no, not dive, that is too graceful.
more like a cannon ball.
i've recently discovered that it goes beyond love.
when i am involved in some one's life,
i am fully immersed.
i don't hang around the edges.
i hate the edges.
probably why i don't have too many friends.
and i think, once again, that i tend to get hurt
because i expect everyone to live in the middle of things.
where it is messy, and jumbled up.
where the lines blur a bit, where truth lives.
not on the edges.
where things and relationships can always be neat and tidy.
maybe i just need to start asking people...
excuse me please, before we get into this thing called friendship,
can you tell me..
are you an edge walker?
2 comments:
I have been thinking about this all morning. we tell our kids thing like, if you are going to do soemthing do it well, and it is better to do one thing well than many things not so well,
then we become grown up and somehow think the rules arre different for us.
personally, i would rather have a few friends, that i am all in with. the ones who see me at my best and at my worst and everywhere in between and choose to love me anyway, than 50 friends that are fringe friends.
i want people who can tell by my voice i am lying when i say i am fine. i want people to care. and i want to care.
i agree with you all the way.
"live in the middle of things.
where it is messy, and jumbled up.
where the lines blur a bit, where truth lives"
That describes my best friendship, my best friend, my husband.
This poem kind of gets to it.
http://www.poemsforfree.com/marri3.html
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